11:45-12/04

Life flows clearly and with conviction as it specifically defines the path laid before me. I was chosen and so I chuse in this land of haves and want mores.. I now live a life worth living! A life that brings pause in the morning at the reality that joy has come! I'm now intertwined with the current that is my breathe and I grow past the pain, the hurt, the turmoil.. I stand up boldly in a land that pressed in on me from every side, producing these exquisite gems of less. a. price. and I give freely and yet wisely as I now soar..

The Vent

So far the saying stands true, watch what you do and the people around
You, the ones you stick your neck out for, when the tables are turned won’t even open
the front door, as my anger begins to swell you can tell I haven’t been able to deal
with this all that well. Karma is a bitch to some but she is a knight in shining armor to me , standing hear
waiting patiently for her arrival. I share a office and sit right across from my rival, not
knowing the plans i have in my head to end his survival. I try my hardest to remember
the principles i have read in the bible, but it’s my own fault I have become this homicidal
this bottle of liquor has become my pacifier, but if I said it didn’t make the situation worse
i would be a liar. my surroundings are slowly decaying me, the women of my dreams
seems to be getting less and less of my time i just keep reassuring her our life is like
wine it'll just get better with time. It’s cold in my mind with heat on outside
life and death is where I collide, with my own personality i try to coincide two fingers
to my head I salute suicide... the weight off my chest i try to blend in with the rest
but i am different, I am the real and they represent the fake, in my situation there is just
so much more at stake. 

By: BTT

The Curse

So many thoughts bombard my mind people I should’ve
left in the past with time. The gift and the curse, memories
equipped with vivid pictures alongside words I could
quote like scriptures. When tempers rose you floated away,
where was I when you needed me? Probably  somewhere
stuck in some twisted fantasy, fancy that I put you threw
 hell when I was in search of heaven. Father forgive
me because I’m lost in space, my eyes closed in search
of your face. I don’t know how long I can keep this pace
war in my mind with a piece in my hand. The gift and the curse vivid
pictures bombard my mind, things I should’ve forgot with time.


By: BTT

Gaining Oneself

I lost lust for the world
And gained love in life
Found a purposeful passion
Through kids and wife
Stumbled upon joy
In the midst of turmoil
Struggled with nightmares
Only to make true my dreams
Searched for a reason to smile
All while swimming in a pool of tears
Broke free of chains
Created by fears
Progressed from just fine
To walking sunshine
Walked through hell
With only success on my mind
And no room to fail
To reach the gates of heaven
And a touching story to tell....

By: The Poet Q

Scars

The fight for love the emotion that was supposed to fit like
a glove. The moment when you're supposed to let go and im
supposed to hold on, you go on bringing up old wounds
things buried in my mind, but seem to resonate in yours.
My heart turned cold two summers ago, and yet Ive keep
you warm. What kind of man am I? don't give me love mixed
with hate and not expect the same fate. All men make mistakes
so should we all be burned at the stake??? The snakes slither
in the grass hissing venom in your ear. But when you use the
spot light they freeze in place like deer. Ive given up my life and my dreams
willingly, but I have to come home to you grilling me. Go, Walk away
leave me you don't have to please, I just want to walk the road of life
 with ease. How can you ask the question why don't you stay if every
moment your pushing me away? The scars of yesterday cant heal over
night, so don't push me away for trying to make it right.

BTT